Saturday 26 November 2011

MeNaNgIs BeRsAmA...

SYAHMI,,,,
maafkan ibu nak...
ibu xsengaja nk memarahi syahmi..
tadi syahmi minum susu, pastu syahmi dok meneran2.. ibu dh ckp jgn cam tu nnt muntah...
lepas tu syahmi muntah... habis semua susu keluar blk.. penat jee syahmi minum..
semalam pn syahmi muntah gak..
ibu jadi risau..
ibu xnak syahmi sakit, ibu xnak syahmi masuk hospital..
ibu xnk berat syahmi jatuh, nnt xleh wat operation..
klu xleh wat operation cam ne syahmi nk teman ibu sepanjang hayat ibu..
ibu takut nak... ibu risau..
ibu sayang syahmi sangat2...
ibu xnak hilang syahmi..
ibu xnak syahmi tinggalkan ibu..
ibu xnak berpisah ngan syahmi...
ibu risau...
ibu nmpk syahmi cam dh susut ckit.. 
syahmi tau x???
walaupn ibu sakit, tp ibu gagahkan jugak utk bangun bg susu kt syahmi..
tgh2 malam klu ibu sakit, ibu bgn jugak bg susu kt syahmi,,
ibu tau klu ayah yg bg syahmi xnk minum byk, jadi biarpn ibu sakit ibu bgn jugak demi syahmi..
ibu xnak berat syahmi susut...
ibu takut sayang...
sbb itulah ibu marahkan syahmi td..
bile ibu terpk, syahmi mane lah tau ape2...
syahmi kecil lagi, dh perut syahmi sakit, syahmi nk keluarkan angin dlm perut tuu..
ibu menyesal sgt2 sbb berkasar ngan syahmi..
terus ibu peluk syahmi dan menangis teresak2..
syahmi pn nangis ngan ibu...
ibu menangis sambil bgtau syahmi yg ibu xnak hilang syahmi...
ibu cakap ngan syahmi bukak mate, tgk ibu...
syahmi terus bukak mate dan tgk ibu...
ibu sedih sgt2... ibu tau syahmi paham...
maafkan ibu nak... ibu menyesal...
ibu janji xnak buat syahmi menangis lagi...
ibu syg syahmi sgt2...
ibu harap syahmi paham...

gambar nii ibu ambil waktu syahmi tdo tadi...
 

 
 
gambar nii plk waktu 20/11/2011
abg nabil excited dpt tikar ben 10 baru..




Friday 25 November 2011

ApA iTu Chromosomal abnormalities

 SYAHMI..
syahmi nak tau tak????
sebenarnyee di saat ibu mencoret kata2 ini... hati ibu sedang bersedih
syahmi nk tau kenape???
sbb ibu belum tau lg result chromosome syahmi yg diambil sewaktu syahmi di hospital dulu
 result tu amat penting utk ibu...
sbbnyee bergantung pada result tu ibu dpt tau tahap kesihatan syahmi..
 kdg2 ibu rase biarlah ibu xtau dr ibu tau...
tp kdg2 ibu rase ibu nk tau sgt2, sbb ibu nmpk syahmi kuat, jadi mungkin result nyee -ve
itulah harapan dan doa ibu sbb ibu xnk kehilangan syahmi..
syahmi tau x?
waktu syahmi dlm perut ibu 7bln, ibu dh rase mcm kehilangan syahmi..
yelah, selepas ape yg doktor terangkn pd ibu membuatkan ibu terpaksa bersedia utk kehilangan anak dlm kandungan ibu nii..
betapa sakit dan hancurnyee hati ibu nak.. 
hanya Allah tmpt ibu meminta dan berdoa..
skrg ibu dh menjaga syahmi selama hampir 2bln...
ibu xnak kehilangan syahmi lagi..
ibu nk bersama syahmi saat2 syahmi perlukan ibu..
ibu nak lihat syahmi membesar seperti kanak2 lain..
itu harapan ibu nak..
syahmi kene kuat ye sayang..
pade sesiape yg xberape nk paham ape itu chromosome abnormalities..
kat cni ade ibu copy dr google..
jom kite lihat.......



Chromosomal abnormalities
About 1 in 150 babies in the United States is born with a chromosomal abnormality (2). These abnormalities are caused by errors in the number or structure of chromosomes. Many children with a chromosomal abnormality have mental and/or physical birth defects. Some chromosomal abnormalities result in miscarriage or stillbirth. Understanding what chromosomes are may make it easier to understand the wide range of problems chromosomal abnormalities can cause.
What are chromosomes?
Chromosomes are tiny, string-like structures in cells of the body that contain the genes. Humans have about 20,000 to 25,000 genes that determine traits like eye and hair color; genes also direct the growth and development of every part of the body (4). Each person normally has 23 pairs of chromosomes, or 46 in all. We inherit one chromosome per pair from our mother and one from our father.
What causes chromosomal abnormalities?
Chromosomal abnormalities usually result from an error that occurs when an egg or sperm cell develops. It is not known why these errors occur. As far as we know, nothing that a parent does or doesn’t do before or during pregnancy can cause a chromosomal abnormality in his or her child.

Egg and sperm cells each contain 23 chromosomes. When they join together, they form a fertilized egg with 46 chromosomes. But sometimes something goes wrong before fertilization. An egg or sperm cell may divide incorrectly, resulting in an egg or sperm cell with too many or too few chromosomes.

When this cell with the wrong number of chromosomes joins with a normal egg or sperm cell, the resulting embryo has a chromosomal abnormality. A common type of chromosomal abnormality is called a trisomy. This means that an individual has three copies of a specific chromosome, instead of two. For example, individuals with Down syndrome generally have three copies of chromosome 21 (though a small number of cases are caused by chromosomal rearrangements).

In most cases, an embryo with the wrong number of chromosomes does not survive. In such cases, the pregnant woman has a miscarriage. This often happens very early in pregnancy, before a woman may realize she’s pregnant. More than 50 percent of first-trimester miscarriages are caused by chromosomal abnormalities in the embryo (1).

Other errors can occur before fertilization. These errors can alter the structure of one or more chromosomes. Individuals with structural chromosomal abnormalities usually have the normal number of chromosomes. However, small pieces of a chromosome (or chromosomes) may be deleted, duplicated, inverted, misplaced or exchanged with part of another chromosome. These structural rearrangements may have no effect on a person if all of the chromosome is there but just rearranged. In other cases, the rearrangements may result in pregnancy loss or birth defects.

Errors in cell division can occur soon after fertilization. This can result in mosaicism, a condition in which an individual has cells with different genetic makeups. For example, individuals with the mosaic form of Turner syndrome are missing an X chromosome in some, but not all, of their cells. Some individuals with chromosomal mosaicism may be mildly affected, but the severity of the condition depends largely on the percentage of abnormal cells.

How are chromosomal abnormalities diagnosed?
 Chromosomal abnormalities can be diagnosed before birth using prenatal tests [amniocentesis or chorionic villus sampling (CVS)] or after birth using a blood test. Cells obtained from these tests are grown in the laboratory, and then their chromosomes are examined under a microscope. The lab makes a picture (karyotype) of all the person’s chromosomes, arranged in order from largest to smallest. The karyotype shows the number, size and shape of the chromosomes and helps experts identify any abnormalities.

The American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists recommends that all pregnant women be offered a screening test for Down syndrome and certain other chromosomal abnormalities, regardless of the woman’s age (2). Screening may consist of a maternal blood test done in the first trimester (at 11 to 13 weeks of pregnancy) along with a special ultrasound of the back of the baby’s neck. It also can be a maternal blood test done in the second trimester (at 15 to 20 weeks). A screening test helps identify pregnancies that are at higher-than-average risk of these abnormalities. However, a screening test cannot diagnose Down syndrome or other chromosomal abnormalities. Providers offer women who have an abnormal screening test result amniocentesis or CVS to diagnose or rule out these disorders.

What are the most common chromosomal abnormalities?
The first 22 pairs of chromosomes are called autosomes. Some common abnormalities of these chromosomes include:

Down syndrome: This is one of the most common chromosomal abnormalities, affecting about 1 in 800 babies (3). Individuals with Down syndrome have varying degrees of intellectual disability, characteristic facial features and, often, heart defects and other problems.

The outlook for children with Down syndrome is far brighter than it once was. Most have intellectual disabilities in the mild to moderate range. With early intervention and special education, many learn to read and write and participate in diverse childhood activities.

The risk of Down syndrome and other trisomies increases with the mother’s age. The risk of having a baby with Down syndrome is about (1):
  • 1 in 1,300 at age 25
  • 1 in 1,000 at age 30
  • 1 in 400 at age 35
  • 1 in 100 at age 40
  • 1 in 35 at age 45
Trisomies 13 and 18: These trisomies usually are more severe than Down syndrome, but fortunately less common. About 1 in 16,000 babies is born with trisomy 13 (also called Patau syndrome), and about 1 in 5,000 with trisomy 18 (also called Edwards syndrome) (4). Babies with trisomies 13 or 18 generally have severe mental retardation and many physical birth defects. Most affected babies die before their first birthday.

The last pair of chromosomes are the sex chromosomes, called X and Y. Generally, females have two X chromosomes, and males have one X chromosome and one Y chromosome. Sex chromosome abnormalities may cause infertility, growth abnormalities, and, in some cases, behavioral and learning problems. However, most affected individuals live fairly normal lives. Common sex chromosome abnormalities include:

Turner syndrome: This abnormality affects about 1 in 2,500 girls (4). Girls with Turner syndrome have one X chromosome and are missing all or part of the other X chromosome. They usually are infertile and do not undergo normal puberty changes unless they are treated with sex hormones. Affected girls are short, though treatment with growth hormone can help increase height. Some have other health problems, including heart and kidney defects. Girls with Turner syndrome generally have normal intelligence, though some have learning difficulties, particularly with mathematics and spatial concepts (5).

Triple X: About 1 in 1,000 females has an extra X chromosome (4). Affected girls tend to be tall. They usually have no physical birth defects, experience normal puberty and are fertile. Affected girls usually have normal intelligence, though many have learning problems. Because these girls are healthy and have a normal appearance, their parents often don’t know they have a chromosomal abnormality. Some parents may learn that their daughter has this abnormality if they have prenatal testing (with amniocentesis or CVS).

Klinefelter syndrome: This abnormality affects about 1 in 500 to 1,000 boys (4). Boys with Klinefelter syndrome have two, or occasionally more, X chromosomes along with their Y chromosome. Affected boys usually have normal intelligence, though many have learning problems. As adults, they produce lower-than-normal amounts of the male hormone testosterone (and often are treated with this hormone) and are infertile.

XYY: About 1 in 1,000 males is born with one or more extra Y chromosomes (4). Affected males are sometimes taller than average, have normal sexual development and are fertile. Most have normal intelligence, though some have learning, behavioral and speech/language problems. As with triple X females, many affected males and their families don’t know they have a chromosomal abnormality unless it is diagnosed with prenatal testing.

Are there other, less common, chromosomal abnormalities?
New techniques for analyzing chromosomes have made it possible to identify tiny chromosomal abnormalities that may not be visible even under a high-powered microscope. As a result, more parents are learning that their child has a chromosomal abnormality. Some of these uncommon chromosomal abnormalities include:
  • Deletions: A small section of a chromosome is missing.
  • Microdeletions: An extremely small amount of a chromosome is missing, possibly only a single gene.
  • Translocations: A section of a chromosome is attached to another chromosome.
  • Inversions: A section of chromosome is snipped out and reinserted upside down.
  • Duplications: A section of a chromosome is duplicated, so there is extra genetic material.
  • Ring chromosome: Material is deleted at both ends of a chromosome, and the new ends join together to form a ring.
Some chromosomal abnormalities are so rare that only one or a few children are known to be affected. In such cases, it may be impossible for a health care provider to predict a child’s long-term health and development. Some abnormalities (such as some translocations and inversions) may not affect a person’s health if no genetic material is missing or duplicated.

Some uncommon disorders can be caused by small chromosomal deletions. Examples are:
  • Cri-du-chat (cat cry) syndrome (deletion on chromosome 5): Affected children have a cat-like, high-pitched cry during infancy, mental retardation and physical abnormalities. About 1 in 20,000 to 50,000 babies is born with this disorder (4).
  • Prader-Willi syndrome (deletion on chromosome 15): Affected children usually have mental retardation or learning disabilities, behavioral problems and short stature. They also may develop extreme obesity. About 1 in 10,000 to 25,000 babies is affected (4).
  • 22q11 deletion syndrome (deletion on chromosome 22): About 1 in 4,000 babies is born with deletions in a specific region of chromosome 22 (4). These deletions cause a variety of problems that can include heart defects, cleft lip/palate, immune system abnormalities, characteristic facial features and learning disabilities. Certain combinations of these features are sometimes called DiGeorge or velocardiofacial syndrome. Individuals with this disorder have a 50-percent chance of passing the chromosomal abnormality on to their offspring with each pregnancy (4).
  • Wolf-Hirschhorn syndrome (deletion on chromosome 4): This disorder is characterized by mental retardation, heart defects, poor muscle tone, seizures and other problems. It affects about 1 in 50,000 babies (4).
With the exception of individuals with 22q11 deletion syndrome, individuals with these disorders generally do not reproduce.

Are all children with the same chromosomal abnormality alike?
No. Each child with a chromosomal abnormality should be evaluated as an individual. Even people with apparently identical chromosomal abnormalities can differ substantially from each other. How a person is affected depends greatly, but not wholly, on the exact genetic material involved. Each chromosome contains hundreds to thousands of genes, and each gene influences different characteristics or body functions.

New techniques of analyzing chromosomes sometimes can pinpoint exactly where missing or extra genetic material comes from. If providers know what genes are contained in that section and their function, they sometimes can give parents a better prediction of a child’s future development. 


kesimpulannye: pade sesiape yg xberape paham meh ibu explain serba sedikit..
chromosome abnormalities ni adalah terjadinyee error sewaktu persenyawaan ovum ngan sprem.. utk membentuk zigot, kene ade 23 pasang chromosome.. iaitu 46 chromosome.. jike terdapat gangguan samada external or internal factor, chromosome itu akan rosak dan menyebabkan chormosome abnormalities dan membawa kecacatan pada bayi yg akan lahir nanti.. faktor penyebab utama adalah genetik.. ataupn faktor luaran seperti terdedah kepada bahan kemikal, ibu yg mengambil alkohol sewaktu mengandung dan sbginyee.. terdapat beberape level chromosome yg selalunyee terjadi sewaktu kehamilan adalah chromosome 22 iaitu menyebabkan down syndrome.. chromosome yg bahaya plk adalah 13 dan 18.. 13 selalunyee berlaku 1 dalam 16000 kelahiran yg dipanggil platau syndrome.. platau syndrome ni biasanyee akan berlaku kecacatan seperti sumbing, jari lebih atau kurang, tulang pendek dan sebagainyee... kalau T18 plk terjadi biasanyee 1 dalam 5000 kelahiran.. ianya melibatkan masalah jantung, buah pinggang dan otak.. kalau terkena pada level 13 dan 18 nii jangka hayat tidak lebih setahun.... yg lain tu blh laa translete sendirik yee sbb byk sgt.. ibu translate yg common jee..
inilah yg amat2 menakutkan ibu nak.. ibu berdoa dan berharap agar syahmi dijauhkan dari bende alah ini... ibu berharap agar semua kawan2 di luar sana utk mendoakan syahmi.. ibu xnk kehilangan syahmi... ibu syg syahmi sgt2... cukuplah ape yg ibu tanggung sewaktu syahmi 7bln dlm kandungan.. ibu xnk sejarah itu berulang lagi..... 

 ibu sayang syahmi sgt2... ibu xnak kehialngan syahmi.. ibu nak bersama2 ngan syahmi hingga akhir hayat ibu nak....

Thursday 24 November 2011

BoLa BoLa BoLa.....

SYAHMI,
syahmi nak tau, tanggal 21 nov 2011..
pertandingan bola antara malaysia vs indonesia..
kebetulan hari tu jugak syahmi ade appointment dgn ENT
(ear, nose and throat)
appointment tu sebenarnyee utk menguji tahap pandengaran syahmi..
tapi waktu ayah ambik appointment hari tu, ayah lupe nk bagitahu pegawai tu 
bahawa syahmi pn ade masalah sumbing..
sbb klu ade masalah sumbing biasanyee mmg result xkn dpt..
tp disebabkan kite dh smpi, pegawai tu cube jugak lah melakukan ujian tersebut..
resultnyee..... xdapat..
jadi deorang bg appointment setahun lagi, selepas syahmi dh repair sumbing tuu..
xpelah, kite ikut je lah..
tapi gerak hati ibu dpt merasakan yg syahmi boleh mendengar..
buktinyee....
balik dari appointment kite pegi rumah acik ina..
ini kali pertama syahmi smpi cni tau...
ayah ade keje kt TLDM lumut, jadi kite lepak umah acik dulu
tpt 8.30 mlm perlawanan bola antara malaysia vs indonesia pn start..
jadi waktu tgk bola tu mmg lah gamat..
sbb ade 6 org kt ctu..
bukti yg syahmi blh mendengar ialah, setiap kali kami menjerit, syahmi akan terkejut..
tapi syahmi mmg budak yg baik sbb nyee... syahmi xnangis pn..
senang ibu bawak syahmi jalan2... 
mlm tu syahmi tdo xberbuai pn, tapi syahmi tdo lena..
baiknyee anak ibu sorang nii..
walaupn susah mengandungkan dan melahirkan syahmi tapi
senangnyee ibu membesarkan syahmi..
itulah tandanyee Allah maha adil..
kuasa Allah semua tuu,,
semoga dipermudahkn semua nyee...amin...


ni ibu upload video malaysia menang 1-1, penalti 4-3.
walaupn menang penalti jee, tp sbg rakyat malaysia..
kite harus berbangga...
malaysia boleh....


Sunday 20 November 2011

DoA IbU SeMoGa SyAhMi Di BeRi KeKuAtAn BeGiNi....

SYAHMI...
syahmi nk tau, hari ni tarikh cantik sgt2... 20/11/2011..
ape yg istimewa utk ibu hari nii????
ibu jumpa video yg akan beri kekuatan utk kite..
video yg beri motivasi utk kite...
supaya bersyukur dgn ape yg kite ade..
sbb ade org yg lg teruk dr kite...
ni ibu nk tunjuk video yg pertama..
name die mohd sukur ibrahim.. keadaan kaki die same mcm syahmi, tapi die boleh berjalan
dan die berjaya dlm hidup die...
jom kite tgk... layannzzzzzzzz


bile tgk jee video nii,,, ibu tergamam...
sbb keadaan die same cam syahmi..
jadi ibu nak syahmi berjaya cam die suatu hari nnt..
jgn pernah timbul rasa malu, sbb ke mana saja syahmi pergi 
org sekeliling akan kagum ngan syahmi....
klu ade yg pandang serong atau gelakkan syahmi....
abaikannye doa jee semoga die sentiasa sihat dan keluarge die juga sentiasa sihat dan sempurna...
ingat itu kunci kejayaan syahmi kalau syahmi nk berjaya cam mohd sukur nii..
ibu akan sentiasa berdoa dan bg sokongan kt syahmi...

ibu nak upload lagi satu video tp xleh..
nnt ibu buat lagi 1 n3 yee..
tapi satu pesanan ibu kalau syahmi dpt bace ape yg ibu coretkan ini,
ibu nk syahmi kuat semangat, jgn pernah putus asa dan pedulikan ape yg org kate..
yang penting kite tau ape yg kite buat..
moga anak ibu ni berjaya suatu hari nnt..
itu doa ibu utk syahmi...



Thursday 17 November 2011

nEoNaTAL WarD Dan IJN...


SYAHMI,
Syahmi nak tau tak, waktu 9hari syahmi dilahirkan, Syahmi ngan ibu dh pergi ke IJN.. Kite pegi naik ambulan.. syahmi mmg anak yg advanture, seumur hidup ibu xpernah naik ambulan, tapi demi syahmi ibu rela walaupn ibu baru 9 hari dlm pantang.. ibu ingat lagi tanggal 14th OCT 2011, sehari lepas birthday ibu, pagi2 lagi ibu dh tunggu kt NICU utk ikut syahmi pergi IJN. Abang nabil ngan ayah pn ade hantar ibu pagi tu.. hari tu ade 2 kes yg kene g IJN, satu lagi kes lebih kurang mcm Syahmi jugak, baby tu tangan pendek, sakit jantung dan xde salur dubur.. tapi jantung die lenih kronik kalau nk dibandingkan ngan syahmi, sbb die ade jantung berlubang, injap tersumbat dan bocor.. die g IJN utk dioperate terus.. ibu jadi resah sbb ibu masih xtau status jantung syahmi waktu tu.. ibu hanye mampu berdoa jgn laa jantung syahmi teruk mcm tuu.. lepas tu dalam ambulan rase cam nak tercabut jantung sbb die bawak laju gile.. siap langgar side mirror kete lain lagi.. menakutkan.. tapi xpe itu semua satu pengorbanan utk syahmi tersayang..syahmi tau tak hari tu jugak abang nabil dpt tgk syahmi face to face, waktu doctor nk transfer syahmi dlm ambulan, abg nabil dpt tgk syahmi.. syahmi tau ape abg nabil ckp, “comel nyee adik abang”.. terharu ibu sbb abg nabil mmg cerdik dan sayang kan syahmi.. syahmi tau tak waktu ibu nk naik ambulan, ibu terjatuh kt tangga ambulan, ibu xtau kenape sbb lutut ibu tiba2 rase lembik, walaupn luaran ibu nmpk kuat tapi sebenarnyee ibu lemah.. ibu tgh susah hati sgt2.. ibu takut mengenangkan keadaan syahmi waktu tu.. tapi ibu memanjatkan kesyukuran terhadap Allah sbb keputusan scan jantung syahmi menunjukkan yg keadaan jantung syahmi tidak lah begitu kronik, syahmi cume ade jantung berlubang, mmg berlubang besar tp tidak perlu dioperate serta merta.. doctor ckp ibu blh bawak blk syahmi, jaga cam baby biasa. Cume kene berhati2 takut klu syahmi tiba2 sesak nafas atau bertukar menjadi kebiruan.. jantung syahmi masih tidak menunjukkan ape2 tande yg kritikal.. Alhamdulillah.. ibu bersyukur sgt2.. mase balik dlm ambulan, semangat ibu berkoabr2 nk jage syahmi.. nak bawak syahmi balik umah.. tak sabar rasenyee..

Sehari lepas syahmi g IJN, syahmi ditransfer ke neonatal ward.. itu maksudnyee syahmi dh stable.. syahmi ditransfer ke sane utk ibu belajar care nk menyusu syahmi jee.. yelah dh 10 hari syahmi gune tiub utk minum susu, skrg kenalaa belaja care nk hisap susu sendiri.. inilah cabaran yg agak sukar utk ibu.. tapi ibu tempuhi juge.. walaupn amat sukar sekali nk mengaja syahmi hisap susu sendiri, doctor suruh ibu beli botol heberman.. ibu dh beli .. mahal betul rm170 sebotol.. tapi syahmi masih xpandai nk hisap sendiri.. bile diassess oleh occupational therapy rupenyee syahmi xpandai menelan.. jadi die ajar ibu camne nk wat exercises supaya syahmi pandai menelan.. hisap pn syahmi xpandai.. akhirnyee ibu terpaksa bg susu syahmi gune botol yg muncngnyee sudu bkn putting.. syahmi tau, nk habiskan 50ml susu ibu terpaksa ambik masa sejam stgh.. kdg2 syahmi muntah lepas susu habis.. kecewanyee ibu dh lah susah nk minum, muntah lak tu.. xpelah.. mungkin ini lah dugaan utk kite.. yg penting kite bersabar jee.. lepas tu nurse kat sane semua puji syahmi, deorang cakap walaupn syahmi ni istimewa, tapi syahmi baik dan xmenyusahkan.. dan kalau syahmi nak tau smpi skrg saat ibu coretkan luahan hati ibu ni, syahmi mmg xmenyusahkan ibu.. senang sgt nk jaga syahmi.. syahmi mmg budak yg baik.. sewaktu ibu jaga syahmi kt ward tu, ibu dapat ramai kenalan yg anak mereka jugak admitted kt ward tu.. tp bukanlah kes mcm syahmi, anak mereka kebanyakannye kuning atau jaundice atau demam panas... deorang baik sesangat ngan ibu.. setiap kali ade je yg dh boleh balik mesti deorang dtg bilik kite dan berpesan kt ibu supaya jaga syahmi elok2.. syahmi ni anak bertuah.. murah rezeki.. sejuk hati ibu...

akhirnyee tanggal 20th OCT syahmi dpt balik umah.. setelah ibu confidence bg susu kt syahmi.. setelah beberape hari ibu dok kat hospital tu teman syahmi.. itupun ibu tipu doctor sbb sebenarnyee ibu xpandai sgt, tp sbb nk bawk blk syahmi ibu tipu.. skrg syahmi dh pandai kan… pas tu sehari sblm syahmi balik jantung syahmi laju, doctor xbenarkan ibu bawak balik syahmi lagi, utk observation.. tapi ibu berkeras nk bwk blk jugak sbb klu dok kt sane nnt syahmi jd bahan experiment dan ibu risau klu ibu xboleh bawak balik syahmi smpi bile2… doctor tu mengalah.. dan akhirnyee syahmi boleh balik umah…gembiranyee hati ibu dpt bwk balik syahmi.. sempat lagi ibu singgah tesco beli baju, susu dan beberape kelengkapan syahmi.. yela ibu xbuat persiapan sgt utk syahmi setelah tau keadaan syahmi dlm perut dulu.. ape yg sempat dibeli sebelum tu jee.. tp xpe nnt kite g beli byk2 yee… itulah ceritanyee dari syahmi kt NICU, HDU smpi lah ke ward.. nanti ibu up date pulak cte syahmi yg senang diajar sbb dh pandai gune botol biasa utk menyusu… syg syahmi sgt2… syahmi mmg xmenyusahkan ibu kan..

ini ibu abadikan gambar syahmi sewaktu berada kt neonatal ward..



ni pulak gambar syahmi waktu dh bersiap nk blk umah kite...



Tuesday 15 November 2011

SaAt2 SyahMi Di HDU


SYAHMI
Kisah kali ini ibu nak cte kan pulak pengalaman ibu sewaktu syah mi berada di HDU. Ibu tak nak satu pn kisah saat kehadiran syahmi di dalam hidup ibu hilang dan lenyap begitu sahaja. Ibu nak abadikan semua kenangan saat pahit manis ibu dan syahmi serta ayah dan abg nabil sewaktu menerima kehadiran syahmi dalam hidup kami. Ibu juga nak abadikan bagaimana kuatnyee anak ibu berjuang utk terus hidup bersama ibu, ayah dan abg nabil. Ibu juga nak syahmi tahu betapa berharganyee syahmi pada kami.. syahmi lah pengarang jantung, buah hati, permata kami semua.

Tanggal 8/10/2011… ibu dibenarkan doctor utk discharge setelah keadaan ibu stabil dan setelah lebih 48 jam dioperated. Pertama ibu rasa sayu dan sedih sgt2 sbb kalau ibu dh boleh balik umah, maksudnyee ibu kene tinggalkan syahmi sendirian di hospital. Ibu xboleh bawak syahmi balik lagi sbb keadaan syahmi masih xstabil waktu tu…hat ibu jadi xkeruan… berbelah bahagi antara abang nabil dan juga syahmi. Semalam abg nabil nangis2 tepon ibu. Die ckp die nk ibu.. die rindu kat ibu.. die nangis sampia muntah2.. die nangis ibu pun nangis same.. ibu rase nak terbang pergi ambik abg nabil.. tapi klu ibu pergi ambik abg nabil nnt syahmi pulak bersendirian kt hospital.. sedihnyee ibu waktu tuu.. xtau nak ngadu kt sape.. malam tu ibu xtdo mengenangkan kedua2 anak ibu. Ibu tgk ayah lena tdo sebelah ibu, yelah ayah penat dh 5hari melayan kerenah ibu kt hospital.. ok sambung balik cter td, pagi sabtu tu setelah semuanyee selesai, ibu pergi jenguk syahmi kt NICU, terkejut ibu syahmi dh xde kt tmpt smlm, rupenyee syahmi dh ditransfer ke HDU… sbb ape???? Sbb syahmi dh stabil ckit.. syahmi cume memerlukan nasal pronged jee, iaitu oksigen kt hidung jee, xpayah pakai oksigen box lagi.. oksigen syahmi pun menunjukkan 96-100%.. anak ibu mmg kuat.. ibu tgk syahmi tdo je kt HDU tuu.. xbyk ragam pn.. sayu hati ibu mengenangkan ibu kene balik umah dan meninggalkan syahmi sendirian kt hospital. Tapi xpe hari2 ibu ngan ayah akan jenguk syahmi.. ibu dh janji.. dan memang hari2 pn ibu jenguk syahmi, sampai nurse pn risau tgk ibu, die suruh ibu jaga diri ibu gak, camne ibu nak jaga diri ibu kalau ibu susah hati tinggalkan syahmi kt hospital tuu. Ibu xpeduli, walaupn tmpt jahit ibu sakit, ibu ttp jenguk syahmi hari2. Pagi2 ibu suruh ayah hantar ibu pastu tgh hari ibu suruh ayah ambik ibu. Ptg ibu suruh ayah jenguk syahmi sblm blk keje..ibu ngan ayah xtinggalkan syahmi sendirian.. 

Syahmi ingat tak??? Hari2 ibu nangis tepi syahmi.. menitik2 air mata ibu.. ibu sedih sgt2.. hati ibu xkeruan.. pastu syahmi pun nangis same2 ngan ibu. Jenuh ibu pujuk syahmi, syahmi xnk diam gak, sampai akhirnyee nurse kt sane mengalah dan menyerahkan syahmi dalam dakapan ibu.. barulah syahmi diam… syahmi tgk jee muke ibu.. mesti syahmi teringin sgt nk duduk dalam dakapan ibu seperti mane anak2 yg lain kan.. xpe bile syahmi sihat ibu akan sentiasa peluk syahmi.. xkan ibu tinggalkan syahmi kecuali urusan keje ibu nak.. dan itu yg ibu lakukan skrg kan… ibu sentiasa ade bersama syahmi.. kalau syahmi nangis ibu peluk syahmi.. smpi syahmi xnk kt ayah, klu ayah pujuk syahmi pn syahmi ttp nangis smpi ibu yg dtg pujuk syahmi.. manje nyee syahmi nagn ibu kan.. ibu bangga sgt2 sbb syahmi manje ngan ibu.. syahmi tau tak?? Syahmi cume memerlukan bantuan oksigen 4 hari jee,pastu syahmi dpt bernafas sendiri.. syahmi mmg kuat.. doctor sendiri pn ckp baby ni mmg sgt2 kuat.. ibu sedih kenapalah ibu xsekuat syahmi.. mulai saat itu ibu terus bertekad utk same2 kuat ngan syahmi.. ibu nak jaga syahmi dan melihat syahmi membesar di depan mata ibu.. ibu nak bersama2 susah senang ngan syahmi.. semoga impian ibu tercapai nak.. syahmi kt HDU pn smpi hari yg kesepuluh jee, pas tu syahmi ditransfer ke ward neonate.. syahmi mmg kuat.. ibu bangga sgt2 ngan syahmi.. pengalaman sewaktu bersama2 syahmi kt NICU xkn ibu lupakan seumur hidup ibu.. syahmi lah kekuatan ibu…

Syahmi tau tak ibu sedih sgt2..ibu tau ade yg ckp ibu xleh terima syahmi sbb keadaan syahmi cam ni.. ibu mane yg xterime anak, walau buruk mane sekalipun syahmi ttp darah daging ibu.. benih yg terhasil dari perkongsian kasih ayang antara ayah dan ibu.. zuriat ibu sendiri.. sedihnye ibu bile ade yg beranggapan begitu.. xpelah mungkin anak2 mereka semua sihat2 belaka.. doakanlah kesihatan anak mereka yee.. ape yg ibu risaukan cume keadaan organ dalam syahmi.. ibu takut syahmi xmampu menanggung kesakitan operation suatu hari nnt.. ibu takut nk menghadapi saat syahmi dimasukkan ke hospital dan dioperate.. hati ibu mane yg xsedih kalau anak mereka sakit??? Tapi xpe, sbb ibu tau syahmi kuat.. syahmi mampu menempuhi semua itu kan.. ibu akan ade bersame2 syahmi andainyee satu hari nnt syahmi dioperate.. ibu akan jaga syahmi dan bg semangat kt syahmi yee.. 

Ibu akan abadikan gambar2 ayahmi kt HDU utk dijadikan kenangan di sini.. somoga suatu hari nnt syahmi dpt melihat sendiri betapa kuatnyee syahmi.. semoga dirimu terus kuat utk menempuhi hari2 mendatang nak.. ingat pesan ibu ibu, ayah ngan abang nabil sentiasa ade bersame2 syahmi.. kite kene same2 kuat utk hidup bersame2..







nnt ibu akan ceritakan pengalaman syahmi sewaktu di ward neonatal  dan kejayaan2 syahmi yg membuatkan ibu tersenyum..